very sweet surprise..

some1 sent me 6 lovely roses!! no card no name, so mysterious. ha!
WHITE roses in GREEN wrappins, green my fav color.. so sweeeeeeeeet!

6 stalks = i wanna b yours
white roses = u r heavenly, i miss you

ok, i called up n check wif the florist lolx..

meme: hi, i jus received a bouquet frm your guys n thrs no note frm sender. mayb u can tell..
(i was interupted bfore i could finish my sentence)
florist: oh the white roses 1 issit? the man say u will noe.. so no need leave card.
meme: you haf his name?
florist: duuno issit the sender, but is a gal name..

ok, i tink noe who le..


meme: heyhey, did u sent me white roses in green wrappin??
jy: yes, hope it can cheer you up n yes, i noe u like green...
he noes im quite moody recently.. a few simple abc, tis simple gesture, touched me.


Liz says: pple u no like send u d whole shop oso no happy one lah
inoka says: nothin much jus wanna cHeer me up
Liz says: i thk tis kind is most sweet lor
Liz says: no reason jz send one
inoka says: yes
inoka says: dats why
Liz says: rather than special occassion then send
Liz says: hahaha...
Liz says: soooo sweeet de leh
Liz says: tis one nt bad nt bad... add points
inoka says: lolx

i is totalli agreed wif lizzie n i is still smilin til nw!! :)

whr oh whr haf u been?

All the lonely people, where do they all come from...
All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people, where do they all belong?
~ Eleanor Rigby, The Beatles

sick n drowsy, haiz unbearable pain, useless medication n a battled body. yet, i amused myself much this noon when, aft a good few hrs of sleep, my mind rejuvenated enuff to tink clearly once again. it was den dat i realized dat tis stress and sadness i been feelin lately was largely due to my confused state of mind, hidden huge ego of a fairly small built gal.

the sense of not being lost which i work so hard at maintainin was being trampled upon by my fantasies, of havin a total brand new life wif the some1 whom i knew is impossible. there is oways tis imaginary crack i presented bfore myself, imagine escapin thru it n onto life anew.
how is dat possible, a qns i constantly questioned myself.

seriously, i is haf no legitimate complaints. i haf all i need. indeed, much more den suffices. so, any thots out of me is merely a matter of a momentary loss of affection for present, lettin all funny sickenin wild thots lead to me to forget all i haf n wantin of more.
yet, i haf an issue, perhaps the same many of us drifters haf.. i am often bored.

the weird ting is, i simply love to be alone and prefer not to feign interest unnecessarily but i get bored eventualli. i love to hang out wif pals.. try out new stuffs n hobbies n likewise i get bored soon enuff.. i wonder if tinkin too much got to do wif it. mayb, jus mayb i shld haf my eyes closed try not to ponder or wander or pursue anyting pensively watsoever. try not to be clever or witty or "wise", stop tryin to analyze wats on every1s mind, contemplate my every next move to ensure me not losin hope..

to the you who's tryin hard to understand me when i barely noes myself. you vie in vain my dear, n you will only be driven insane, shld you keep tryin..

陌生了

你不懂得
到底我需要的是什么
看不透是你的错

一切都陌生了

trapped

the bell tolls in my mind by a few simple words.. i feel a part of me dyin. thrs nuthin left behind of wat i thot was beautiful.. i felt my heart sentenced. either i will die of coldness or dissolve in the atmosphere of time.. time, how much time do i haf to waste? mayb angela was rite, it is rainin happiness ard me yet i no longer had clouds above my heart.. wtf, i dun even noe me aft all this years.. how come i nvr see my real face, my real heart, my real me? yes leave me alone, back off.. dats wat i wanted, isnt it jac? mayb hell is wat i wanted, wat i needed, wat i deserved..

yr heaven is not for me, and it nvr will be, frm now on.

wat a dream.

had another nitemare..

in the dark fog of a walkway
is a discernin you
wif devilish face
small and stopped up eyes
mouthfull of worms
u cried
i’ll make you suffer!!!

ok, dats bad enuff to wan to go back to bed.

@#$%^&*!

its weird how you can haf such peaceful weekend, and get your mind off of everythin. den the second you step thru the door, it all comes back. it seems like its all worse now. like it jus hit me for the first time. hate it especially when all i wanna is to put wrong tings rite but no matter how hard i tried, tings are still headin to the super wrong direction!
i noe i haf realli amazin family and frens, but sometimes i feel like im too much for any1 to handle. even me, myself. i feel disconnected frm em, like im in a little pace of my own and its a scary place to be. since i cant bring any1 in.. might as well stay thr on my own. perhaps its not being me dats xhaustin, its being the1 for the1 whos nvr been mine which is realli burnin away which ever left within me. over the past few days ive been feelin myself driftin deeper and deeper. why am i oways so fuckin depressed???!! perhaps im jus tired. mayb when im tired, either everythin is purely amusin, or everythin is extremely annoyin!! grrr...

ok, tink im not makin too much sense here but well.. at least im done. for now.

梦不到

已经好久好久都没有再梦到他了。
如果说日有所思夜有所梦，那是不是意谓着我不再那么想念着他？
他究竟在那里。为什么我总是捉摸不到。
不知他会不会像我现在一样的想着我？
这样莫名其妙的，非常非常的，刻骨铭心的，想起我。

原来大年初一的我一点也不开心。

rain + hm alone = borin!!

aiya 6:17 le still in office.. cant go hm yet coz rain is heavy!! zzzzz..

no1 fetch me home, abit lost. many many pple no cabbies. somemore CTE sure jammmm.

lolx *tink of the train ride + walkin back hm* = stresss

so while waitin for rain to stop, might as well blog alittle.

noon we went to vivo for lunch. duuno whr to eat so boss say marche.. hmm, as normal, nuthin much to eat oso thr. faintz anyway four of us took a pic. quite nice ma hor.. dats lizzie, me, shireen and ada..

gail n marv.. took tis pic when she on fone tryin to xplain to tis dumbo on how to get to our office. lolx check out her pissed off cum stress face.. actualli, quite pretty oso la she.

after makan we head to Toy R Us for more eggflips. got myself 2 more chicks and ta da! my latest collection! i need 4 more to complete the set.. who wan buy for me? lolx

ok la, me goin hm le.. later mj better be good!!! grrr..

二月十四 in office

it was 情人节 in office. Nuthin special for me coz practically my mood sure very laoya on holidays like such lolx. duuno y, dun ask me y. i wun noe how to ans.. but well, sometimes, a little surprise can be pretty sweet..

gail gave tis to all colleagues and of coz me haf la.. so sweet hor she. i no prepare anyting for any1 lolx... even my boss had 1.. he dinno who gib him, he oso no bother go find out.. so borin!

tis mini card frm jo.. it was oready on my desk when i reached office. hmm.. a very simple gesture dat warmed my heart.. ^^ eh!! now dat im lookin at it, y no hab my name???
eeeekkkk mass production huh!!! JOANNE!!!!!

tis 21 stalks of 红玫瑰 bouquet is frm a fren Charles, he's so sweet! 21 stalks actualli meant im devoted to you.. but how can.. lolx faintz i prettier or the roses prettier? aiya no need say, cfm i prettier la! hee..

ok la 2 of us who hab many many roses.. jo and hers frm jason.
not bad wor he, self-delivery to our office! men like dat whr to find...

johan came and surprised me wif tis realli HUGE bear n roses.. but the bear quite ugly! lolx.. countin, i hab 3 bears frm him oready... no more no more... no more bears pls...


i heard tis frm some1, dun rem who..
if luv is blind, y is lingerie so popular? lolx lolx

shanghai shanghai pics

Day 1 walkin along nanjing street.. i tink?

cant quite rem.. all i rem was ksn COLD~~~~

the air was freakin cold n dry but hor duuno why me so 犯贱, die die wan eat ice-cream. so gatherin most of us, we "force" our boss, Gary bring us go eat.. yum yum! but seriously,

quite ex.. not cheap to eat Haggen Daz in shanghai..
me liz marv and jojo + duuno whose hand (shireen?), njoyin...
but aft dat, i is cough non stop lolx!

very very long long walk to buy nuthin at tis nanjing xi road..

me & jojo... she ah oways hungry de!

took tis pic for lizzie, i tink im good lolx.. anyway, tis market is damn dirty. i sometimes love to litter.. tot i was bad, they lagi jialats, eat throw eat throw like no1 business. faintz..

famous & cheap 现做现卖 4 for 5rmb.. they simply loved it but to me, ok nia coz porky taste too strong. joanne loved it!!! if go shanghai, do rem to try, if u can tahan the long queue..

the 5 of us at the busy street of 诚皇庙..

wonderin why oways me & lizzie? i oso duuno wor, pple say 2 leos cannot get along..

the fact is we adored eachother.. heee.. i jus realised she frm my sec sch oso!! a few yrs junior den me though...

tot tis pic was very happ wif my sexy shades. faint le ma?

and lizzie and me wif the old shanghai wall street behind us!

the boat ride which lasted for 2hrs almost killed me. it was borin!!! scenery so so nia.. nuthin spect! waste time... grrrr... i no like boats!

see, i not the only 1 who is bored! lolx

went KTV.. So expensive!! boss wan go so we LL.. lolx
marv slpin den shireen n few of us garnish her a little, she din realised and still posed for foto takin aft she woke!! see the evil grinz frm us all!

any resemblance??? lolx.

last min shoppin.. last min pic taken.. me & marv, the gal who shared room wif me.

the gal who dun ..... hmm.. better not say lolx.

taken outside a peking duck restaurant.. so called famous 1 oso la. but other den the duck, the rest so so... onli! after the 4 ducks, we shall continue shoppin!!!
the sun so bright but its very very very very very cold......

inside the restaurant. check out the lambie!! BIG.. tastie i heard.

lol yes heard coz i dun eat lamb. can't stand the super 搔味..

my fav ex boss, winyen on the rite and my fav boss, gary on left and their mutual "eggflip" lookalike friend frm sg - shanghai... round round de he, very interestin!

shop eat shop eat shop eat.. dessert restaurant. dun rem name.

tink is 1 of the famous 1 again, but well, its quite lousy. n expensive!!!

strike a pose!! or 2!! lolxxx

makan at the airport before boardin back to sg..


actualli many more fotos but lazy le la... hmmphh..

DRAINED!!!!

shanghai shanghai

26 Jan 07

day 1 at airport, those taller ones in backrow: shireen in green tankie and beside her is ada ( her velcro takin picture for us, lol) next is my boss in red red limited edition "POLO" tee.. marvie in blue with jojo in her bright red glasses and and the most retard men i ever met, ALEX! ok la, not pissed wif him le but still... shrugs!

now is for those cuties in the front: me feelin cold oready in the jacket angela bought me with lizzie's face so near to me! dun tink she wan stick towards the other side oso. pengz. n after the BIG gap is daphne and eve, my boss PA! aiya lizzie posted 2 funny clips on Utube but i duno how to post the clip here.. so jus follo the link ba!

check out my fav gal lizzie and her "gimme chicken" on return flight frm shanghai..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTFFzrX47xI

me n lizzie in shanghai, almost retard in the cold.. lolx
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSskka_1rc0

will upload more interestin pics aft my 10mbps in action! haha.. ok, back to work!

sistas@work

gary: you all not like colleagues, more like frens... u tink office yr playground?

meme: frens no good meh? can work better ma.. hehe

gary: ok, now u all not like frens.. u all like sistas..

meme: we are sistas ma. no good meh? shld be even better ma!

gary: not very good. too close oready.. *shake head*

meme: .......................

ok, boss complainin the 6 of us too close. haha no 1 seemed to care though. Lizzie made tis coz she too talented and too free. lolx

3 more days to shanghai.. wootz! another good news is i dun hafta bunk wif lizzie or jojo. can smoke whr i like when i fancy! no more restricted to toilets nia! wahahaha.. me so *happy* !!

两个

same day, 2 diff places, 2 diff men, 2 diff feelins...

OFFICE:

i blew my top at my 1 & only male colleague who is a complete retard! anyway, he is the
最不是男人的男人 of the century! buey tahan tis fucker.. how to work wif tis kind of idiotic colleague? somebody teachie me!!!!!! faintz..

part of the commo:

meme: u r so god damn stupid!
alex the dumbass: you dun scold me stupid ok..
meme: but u r stupid wat!!!!!
alex the dumbass: dun u raise yr voice at me!
meme: i am so raising my voice at u. wtf r u gonna do abt it?
alex the dumbass: ......

see! he is a typical faggot!

MRT with Joanne:

it's been a longggggggggggg time since i last find a guy cute enuff for me to keep starin? lolx
or mayb he does resembles my ex. or mayb he is CUTE la.. jo say he dun look my kind. wats my kind? i duuno wor. do u? was jokin in office.. if if if he ask for my number i sure gib. den liz was sayin why dun u go up to him and "hey u wan my number? i gib u la"
ok, dat was funny..

waitin game..

she is in so much pain.. yet thr is nothin much i can do, for now.
every1 is so worried for her yet every1 leavin it to her to take the next step. will it be one forwards or backwards? dat remains to be seen. maybe it wasnt the heart.. mayb wateva which was causin the pain, "it" mite jus be somethin dat would eventualli diminish over time? she will be ok,

wifout dat asshole of coz!!!

but den again, the real pain is all abt in the waitin....

start 2007

ok its 2007 and i haven been postin anytin since.....
no mood to work for now so i thot i could use some stolen time to post some memories of the lovely chicks here to kick start to a brand new yr.

my office new craze.. http://www.eggflips.com/ the fun part of buyin? well, u wun noe wat colors u haf til u open it.. n the trill is.. either u go wootz, yay!!!! or u go Aiyooooo haf liao *wif a sighz*. lolx.. imagine u even try pester yr boss bring u go buy? terrible addiction.. borin part for now, its SOLD OUT everywhr now...


my collections! the red 1 is super hard to get.. hehe i got luck! tink mine got alot? wait til u see the next! simply awesome!


Liz's collections! $9.90 each and she got like 1,2,3,4... 20!! many of those duplicates she gave it to my colleagues. woah! rich gal.


ada's chicks! she buy 2 and the rest r presents! see, all so sayang her!


Joanne and her 2 lonely chicks.. ha!


tis woman shireen was like busy makin us put her chicks all over her so i could snap a pic of her .. like mad woman.. laff die us! ok, she insisted dat so long her face not shown, we r pretty much allowed to do wateva we like to tis pic! so ta da! liz did her new face! cute hor.... *fainted*

reality within

ive been lookin at pple differently ever since duuno when. and recently ive developed tis habbit to start asumin i cant trust any1 and their promises. and some pple dat i havent realli had an opinion on bfore, suddenly i haf an imense dislike for em, small tings abt their personality gets to me. everytin seemed to haf changed. ive said dat bfore. yes, i dint realli like the way tings used to be but i dun like whr they are headin either. perhaps dat is why im feelin so blue. perhaps it is becos im comin to the slow yet incredibly quick realization dat some1, no, somethin ive wished for seems to no longer be within reach. all for the sake of one single difference.

when im feelin blue all i hafta do, is to take a fuckin look at u! ok, is not workin. cos hey, i am the watch you oways wear but you forget to wind. now, im so tired of makin beautiful art outta meaningless words. mayb, jus maybe, i hafta learn, to face those faces of empty promises and nothiness wif wide open arms.. yes, it mus be.

隔空记

it happened again! one of those dreams is killin me..

i dreamt again last nite abt someone whom i noe. the only problem was dat she was in almost all of it. and when she wasnt, i would be runnin ard, lookin for her. so i wake up and i haf tis feelin like i fuckin miss her. BUT the ting was i cant realli see her face or anythin. i dun even noe who was dat. yet, i felt so close to her. arggghhh i wish i could jus figure all out, den mayb everythin wouldnt seem so distant. how did i even let my dreams xhaust me so much!
now, i so feel like how a toy rabbit feels when its batteries run dry.

缘尽今生

一个星期了，没有半点食欲，一天最多吃一餐。时有疼痛，还真分不轻是胃，还是我那第二次被伤透的心。 望这桌上的 Marlboro 白色和绿色，不知此刻的她是不是也象我一样，狠狠的吸了一根接一根的烟来掩盖所有的绝望。心里满满的挂念着千百个不愿被坦白的为什么。唉，替她难过到了极点。。 也许，能为她分担的也只能那么多，希望当选择终于尘埃落定的那一天，她可以不心灰，不意冷的朝人生这条路坚定不移地走下去了。 不会再为那个想找个完美的借口而选择沉默的负心汉心碎伤身。说明了，这次到底谁赢谁输，还言知过早。 蓄意也好，无意也罢。愚蠢的他拿幸福当成了赌注，终会输了她，输了全部。

贱男人

why they nvr realli tink abt the heart on the other side?
aft they haf torn it out.. some pple haf realli died.

FUCKIN BASTARDS!!!!!!

omfg, it burns to exhale...

wtf

here i am, sittin here, chokin in my own bewildered thots, wonderin..
why the fuck i cant haf songs in my Cdrive local settins tempo files anymore??!!!

ok, i seriously need to consider gettin a new pc.. !^&*%#@ ....

爱上了伤

到底伤的是哪里？ 左手右手？ 还是心？ 恐怕自己也分不清。

拜别了跌打神医，呆视着被扎的紧紧的手，全愈只是迟跟早的事。
感叹如果受了伤的心也能用同一包扎方式来等待一定的愈合，为悲痛划上句号。
很完美不是吗？
手中敷满的草药盖着散乱的纹路，遮住了我预知不到的未来。
只有在此刻闻着自己手心，手指的味道，回味所做过的一切一切。
牵手，拥抱，抹泪，挥别心爱的他。。

unfortunate coincidence

是我真的习惯了把简单的事想复杂了吗？还是。。
很实劲的去说服自己所想的都错了。但，终就被压的喘不过气。
当身边的人都觉得過度敏感是一种要不得的负担的时候。
它，却是我心灵深处最不可思议的依靠。


又怎么啦，真的不再晓得。

只剩
阵阵低沉的喃喃自语。。

今晚只剩呼吸

时间的确一转即逝，步入06 年的最后一个月，心境很自然的开始感觉烦闷。也许是今天心中空荡荡的，好像很心不在焉似的在想些什么事，想些莫莫人。思考着思考着，许多对自己要快乐的誓言都乱了，真是犯贱！如果可以灵魂出窍，去07 年走走，瞄一瞄在明年的我，日子将会如何如何的过。那该多好。。


不知从哪一年开始，我不再相信圣诞节。

难受死了

白天
夜晚

无时无刻

原来真真切切的病了的瞬间会令人疲惫。
有如一条离开水的小鱼，不能呼吸。
再也分不清是胃凝结着心在疼，
还是心系着胃慢慢绽裂的痛。

爱情梦

有了他，我快乐了，是真的快乐。
这份若有若无的情感似乎是那样纯粹，那样震憾人心的美。
倘若没有遇见他，我永远也不可能尝到心有灵犀带来的幸福。


宝贝，谢了！

双喜

its Kel's Birthday so after range, angela suggested we meet kel n julia for dinner at ang mo kio. hadda go fetch him n his new GF!!!! all of us so xcited and ok la. not a disappointment. shes quite not bad, pretty wif big round eyes and passable figure although adrian said she very BIG size.. LOLx so bad him. the rest of us felt she's overall good enuff la. so judgemental! ^^ wat to do, my precious brother ma.. mus kpo abit more. but but but, shes onli 21.. very very very young!!

how often do you get serious at the age of 21?

goody moody

问答题
readin back over my blog gifs a very different picture of my life on wat has actualli taken place. mayb coz i was in a fairly gd mood today. ha! back den, life was sorta dangerously depressin and dats why i oways felt the pressure to vent here, cry thr, so to speak. today i felt my life has taken on a slightly different perspective. my priorities haf shifted i tink. tings dat i oways tot were mandatory in my life aint dat necessary now at all.
im also not allowin minor emotions to drag me down for longer den it usuali would. could i say ive taken a more positive control of my life den i shld tink i ever haf before. actualli, im not sure if tis is a firmin up or a lettin go of somethin within me. i shld ask myself tis again. am i truly gainin the control i so much needed or im jus relaxin?

不夜城
so its finalli confirmed we are all goin to shanghai for our company leisure cum shoppin trip! wootz! so look forward to shoppin in style wif ada, joanne, shireen and liz. so for now, its work n weekends till 10 Jan den begin a much needed and well deserved vacation..

戒情人
"gal why dun u jus fuckin quit smokin? dat would stop all dat coughin and stuffs dats killin u frm the overdosage of cigarettes! smokin is a vice u shld seriously consider gettin rid of."
ok it got me ponderin, tis time alittle more den usual of the qns posed to me. shld i? can i? would i? the onli ting dat brings me away frm all sorts of torments were the ciggys i repeatedly brought up to my lips and of coz the look of satisfaction as i exhaled. i dun realli consider smokin a vice though. i haf quit enuff tings in my life, cigarettes can stay.

醉它乡

文，很久以前，你走了。为什么今天你要选择回来扰乱我早已平复的心？
你喝了醉酒，打电话给我。所说的字字模糊不清。忽然，觉得你比以前的我更需要保护。只是你比谁都更擅长伪装。但，你要明白我们已不年轻。我们已没有那样的精力去重新组合感情的故事。我们的思想和已经在担负的责任，根本不允许我们再这样的自私的去发展什么情感释放的东西。所以你不要再来电倾诉你的遗憾。不要再来打扰我的心有所属。我会在这里哀悼那一段没法开始的爱情，没有过去的回忆。不管这次选择是否正确，活下去才会有答案。或许，选择本身便是答案。更或者，你想知道的永远也不会有答案。。

其实，

是你已经失去了谈爱我的资格。

disconnected

"Behind every beautiful thing there is some kind of pain."
~ Bob Dylan ~

i was standin at lvl 3 lookin far and away across the horizon, down on the groovy green along marine bay today. thr was tis magical moment when everythin looked beautiful..
the soft green grass, the swayin leaves on the trees rustlin, a gentle breeze, the sky, the sun, the shade, even the cars in the distance racin along the highway. breathtakin..

at dat moment, i jus wanna share dat xperience wif someone. i could imagine myself lookin into his eyes, sittin down on the grassy hill wif him huggin me and me kissin him. i opened my eyes, i was alone. thr is a feelin of sadness aft dat. while i can revel in my loneliness, i realised i lack dat someone to complete the "i belong to someone who belong to me" experience..

why do i hafta wake?

抱佛脚

im not sure i will survive the comin fri paper not. guess dat since im still smokin, lookin at the screen, im might as well blog a little. though sometimes i wonder if tis isnt jus a virtual reality and my sittin here and writin these words is merely a dream. i hear tis naggin voice tellin me dat im supposed to be studyin for the paper. hmmm mayb im the "bad conscience"? ok im lazy. aiya i jus needed a breather.
i haben gotten any luck tryin to get all dat crap into my brain. flippin n flippin is all i manages to do for the past 1hr.. grrr!

anyway, read tis beautiful poem today. urge to share is strong, so here it goes..

到雪的深处去
流浪
在那里
寻找一个叫做时间
的坟墓
将灵魂埋葬

sufferin is so needed in order to find one's self. how lovely.. shit! late le, mus go back to my books. me so no discipline!

faintz.

thots

had a very very longgg day. aft work is class den study at hm wif ling. supposed to slp aft she went home at 1.30am yet somehow i couldn't slp. i so need to go to bed n rest but.. grrr.. mayb i jus needed to spend some time alone wif myself, as usual.

sometimes i felt like ive seen the world ard me like im a hundred years old. yet, i nvr knew why i cant seem to do the things dat i noe i ought.

duuno how much time has passed reflectin on wat ling said. i mus be realli crazy. can't slp when i had plenty of time on my side and now.. dunwan to slp when i barely had ample restin time? nite is a good time.. its when i can sit back and tink abt things. no one else ard to disturb my train of thots, thots i haf yet to sort out.. mayb im jus tryin to make up for somethin? jus tryin to fill in those empty spaces, those little black holes and voids dat have been suddenly created in my life. den again, mayb its more den dat..

盘旋

累

今天真的好累。。想要好好睡一觉真的好难。曾想人若能冬眠，那该多好。短时间内停止活动，停止记忆，进入睡眠状态。忘怀不开心的人与事才慢慢醒来。如此，世界只会有开开心心的人。
可问题却在，人只能冬眠一次，却再也醒不来。又念起了她。。唉。

逝

他们最后还是分开了。。
我明白，不爱了，就是不爱了，没有什么原因，也不会有任何理由。不管如何努力用尽心思，逝去了的，永不会再回来。她不是他一生的唯一，他也不是她这辈子的最爱。他们的缘只能那么浅，这世只能擦肩而过。
也许身为凡人的我们，根本就没有可能有着什么惊天动地的爱情，靠不住的情感，必定要沉没。

幻

好久没站在老地方静思。今晚回到窗前, 呆呆地抽着烟，望着视线内的一切，心绪似静非静。
7楼的窗外望下去，眼里看得到的都变得好渺小。小得让人觉得一脚伸出去便会踩到地。。幻觉吗？ 或许准确的来讲，是我一直都在幻想着某种程度的死亡。

不要总说我莫名其妙，我只是情绪化。

晚安。

幸福瞬间

S：“ 要不要我陪你去吃饭？”
J：“ 你难道没擦觉到每当你问要与否，我一定答不的吗？”

S：“ 你现在在哪里？”
J：“ 还在办公附近流荡。。”

S：“ 你留在原地等我。我快马加鞭赶过来带你去吃饭。”

虽然我还是说了不，但心以被感动。亲爱的，我很好。我这么告诉了你，你一定要相信。我不须你陪。就算彼此不见，你只要知道我在思考些什么，在乎我的感受，就足够了。对我而言，你无须特别做些什么，心里有我，念着我，真的就够了。所以，对于我的无能为力，和你的无能为力。我都心知冷暖。

今天的我很幸福。

谢谢你。