告别

its never because i dont want to love you. its because i dont know how. we, has come to an end the day u chose to leave. i dont know where to look when you disappear. i know. im sorry..

closer.closed

不知道呆坐了多久，她最终也只能静静地放下。因为她剩下的只是对自己的一厢情愿，对他的何必强求。即使她一次又一次的说着其实，他是爱她的。想着，他是爱她的。原来所有不知道下的事实才是他们真正的结局。手指触着键盘感到冰凉，一根一根的，直到它们失去温度。有人说十指连心。她把手指放在胸口上，这一刻她好似触到了内心的寒冷。才发现她已经没有用苍白的文字来给那段感情记录些什么的能力，只想离开。

累了，给她个休息的地方。 就这样。

最致命的伤

its not like she knows how to answer all the questions she had for them.. or that they ever could. does he really.. she guess not. his moment of silence and the slow intake of breath before he said that he did not know. she already knew his unsaid answer. he was reluctant to admit that she was right. and he hates to admit that she is right again. she off her skype and listen to her tears. but it was too late by then..

hmm...

i dreamt of bradley...

he asked me to join him.

and so i said, im coming. im coming.

im almost there. wait for me..

hmmm..

no one will notice.

"The furthest distance in the world

Is not between life and death

But when I stand in front of you

Yet you don't know that I love you

The furthest distance in the world

Is not when i stand in font of you

Yet you can't see my love

But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both

Yet cannot be together"

其实，最凄绝的距离是两个人本来距离很远，互不相识。
有一天，相识，相爱，距离变得很近。
然后有一天，不再爱了。
本来很近的两个人，变得很远。

甚至比以前更远。

我没在哭，只是在讲我的故事。

if you wonder, wont you ask?

真可笑

he always say the same bullshit to me. “i never meant to lie. i never meant to upset you. im very very sorry.” his words are so interchangeable that they no longer hold the meaning they were supposed to. i knew he was lying all along. all it took was someone else to tell me everything. on one hand i felt guilty for calling him an assholic lying bastard, yet on the other hand i know that because of his actions, i couldnt really feel any other way. but its okay. i will be out of here soon..

lucky me

不会再还原

am too tired to think and feel

am too tired to wish and pretend

am too tired to regret and cry

im tired, i have no more to say

3 fucking more months..