你我之间

你我之间，有的只剩在失落，空虚的时候有个寄托。
虽然你从来不说，我也会懂。你忘了我是如此敏感，如此聪明。
开始觉得笑，依旧是笑。却慢慢没了内容。
你我之间，结束，只是迟早的事。
因为你我之间的爱情本来就是一部忧伤可悲的童话。 。

~ 快乐是会莫名其妙的消失的 ~

寿星boy

today is adrian aka Struter 的
26th BiRthdAY!!!!



猪你好 pOor thiHg 哦，今天明明是你的生日却还要 go to work。

但是没关系，因为你收到了我的祝福，相信你今天过得会很 HaPpY。

so, 寿星佬，我 wiSh 你所有的希望都能如愿，所有的梦想都能实现，

所有的等候都能出现，所有的付出都能兑现!!

happy birthday!!!

我怕

"ahh, it's gonna be arite baby, it's gonna be jus okay..

someday, i'll unlock dat treasure of freedom in yr heart."

thr were such undefined passion in his tone. wat he din noe was.

the key was stashed away, hidden deep by her a long time ago..

like bird lost in flight, her heart will nvr be the same.

~ the end ~

happily everafter..

love fills the moment n the moment begins eternity..

it was least xpected of guohua to get married within such short notice. he's oways so busy makin $$. 1day he jus called me up n said, "er jie, im gettin married!!" n thr, him n his lovely wife. all of us below r so happy for him.


weddin dinner oways start late de, so thr we go again. takin pics time! tis 2 men was wif me thru out my hardest time. meow meow n adrian!! my fav boys!


my dearest dearest meow n me.


nor.. adrian n me. says my fone sucks. so we took most pics wif his w810i. oso so so nia ma. zz


i like her hair the best! it's been awhile but the curls still look good.. sexy!


check out steven's red lobster face. dinner oso haben start n he oready started drinkin like mad.


lolx, drunk by the 7th dish. not bad la, at least he was drunk sittin straight.


take pic wif me so borin meh.. lolx faintz


isn't she cute? haha.. my fav gal wif jason, her fav man.


eug, me, meow and adrian.. O2 atom lagi worse. 3mega pixel meh? laoya!!

~ 对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福。~

last of June

30 June 2006

met von to to go walk walk after work n she is so sweet. bought me tis 4 realli nice chocolate. the heart shape 1 so nice to eat. it's lychee taste!! i wan go buy le..

29 June 2006

had lunch wif Hin. took me to tis old skool LOR MEE.. yummy although i dun haf much appetite.
he bought me tis ciggy from korea. so cute so long so thin. but i hafta suck like 10times harder n yet i cannot taste anythin at all.. faintz. shld haf listen to shireen n not open it at all.

26 June 2006

my 1st ever press launch (at SPH) since i joined ASME. nearer the award, i'll be very busy!! i was warned. lolx busy is good. busy is good. for me at least.

24 June 2006

went LOOF with jo n ling. jus the 3 of us. it's was nice.

had cosmo and lychee martinis!!

21 June 2006

shanny was at the teller when tis boy came up to me (i was smsing) and asked.. "jie jie, can u take a pic of me?" i was like.. "sure.." and took tis pic. so cute hor. i tot he might wanted me to bluetooth him? if he has a fone of coz. lolx guess wat? he said. "no.. for you.." and ran away aft i ask him if he wans a copy of the pic. 他的出现，我微笑了。

truth hurts

tonite i came hm to a weird jelloe. he wasn't very into me. not too welcoming. hmm.. perhaps he's moody?? animals usualli stare directly at us onli briefly, den look away as if unnerved by somethin he saw n din fancy.. yet tonite, he stare at me right in the eyes for the longest time. i guess i wld nvr know why. he's a strange dog at times. but he is my dog, my onli comfort n i love him.. dat, im sure he's noes.

im xhausted all over, especially my soul. 3mths gone n i tot i was okay. i told von im okay le.
im not. too hard, it's jus too hard. how bitter do i wanna risk becomin by swallowin too many tears? cryin seems to me a perfect option. yet, i ran out of tears. so i declare, truth is sometimes best not knowin. if packs of lies is my onli lead to recovery, so pls, fill me up with lies i rather.

sighz, how strange being alive can be. those things we can so readily touch n feel are so far less real den those we can't touch, feel n see.. how ironic. how depressin. while ago i was certain i wld be better. now my confidence is ebbin like shit. god.. im so fuckin vulnerable!!!!

love affair..

i was walkin.. i was walkin..


she was ready...


he was eager...


ok, they were so ready to fuck. lolx

jumbo-sale-in-a-tiny-box

ok weekend sucks when u wake up feelin lousy. duuno wtf is wrong wif me!! GRRrrrRRR!!
tis is gonna be everythin i wanna post but i din, only til now. think it's gonna be a realli long 1.


meow meow n me. i wonder how is he le. im worried yet dats pretty much NOTHIN i can or any1 else can do. he said had to 闭关修炼. for wat ley, nobody noes. i guess we jus hafta wait ba.


it was duno which day of june.. the yearly event my dad will organise for MR 关公's birthday.
they were prayin. i jus go down to eat. for 3days i get to eat "home cooked" food. n dats a luxury to me. ^^

durin 1of the days, johan jio me dinner, i can't so he came down n look for me. i think he wans to show off his new carbon fibre bonnet rather!

Johan n his 红红 de evo..


kuku jason oso came down to pei all of us. i took pics of his Sti den u noe wat he did? he took my fone n mms himself!! grrrr.. my 50cts.. &^#*%$@! 贱人!!

莫名其妙

我哭了。。很莫名的哭了。
好难受，不知道这样的情绪还要持续多久。。

一切的一切为何还是乱乱的。

伤了

DISAPPOINTMENT!!

DISAPPOINTMENT!!!

失望! 失望! 失望!

原来有些话不小心说明白了

便不可以再装下去了

i dun wanna say gdbye, not yet...

"think its time for you to find a better man den me. i will still care n love u til u found dat 1.. i can't haf u waitin aimlessly for me, not knowin whr we will land. i can't bear to let u go but i hafta. spread yr wings n GO baby.. " (tis is so fuckin bullshit!!!)



the trial has just smashed onto her n he haven't said it was over. onli a dunoe how far walk towards end of a beautiful struggle of love n waitin.. haiz
can't imagine the grief when i read abt it n the amt of hurt she's goin thru.

she seems pretty cool when she told me see how ba..
perhaps she had mastered the art of lettin it down easy.
but, freedom aint an easy conquest im afraid. or maybe tis is her version of 自由。
yet, its scary how calm she was...

可怕的不是放手。可怕的是当她说放手的时候，反而抓的更紧。
伤害是这样，外表完整无缺，内在已经支离破碎。。

yes, she wanted out when things were so insecure. he din let go of her. now she brave it all and stick wif him thru thick n thin.. now he's stable, they could have a bright future 2gether..
why he suddenly wanted a change like dat in time of bliss,
will always remain unknown i reckon.
if he love her like she love him, 一切的一切 shouldn't be a problem le ma.

tmd, pack of lies is oways so easy for the 1 tellin it..

kick ass!

world cup!!!

world cup!!!

byebye u

跟你的联系都已经删除了



也许

这样会好一点

evilish side of beautiful things

was in the meetin room n while waitin for my boss, thot of her n her words.. realised how evil misunderstandins n egos can hurt badly.
she was over sensitive.. i was too bo chap, too angree.


[误会]

一口可怕的老井
不知深浅
但足以淹没爱的灵魂

一段留白

so, tis week was awesome in a rather strange way.

i was sick all week. finalli go see doc n gotten myself 2 days mc but i went back to work onli to haf my boss chased me home. had a movie date on sat.. but i cancel it. too sick to travel ard for a movie. played mj instead.

well, ive learned sumthin abt myself and got rid of a few distractions in my life..
ive learned dat i is SO MUCH stronger den i ever thot and dat so many pple are jus not worth it!! those who r worthy, would be cherish, others can go hide in their imaginary world..
i realised i had jus enuff pple who realli care abt me rather den to worry abt the ones who pretended to..

yeah baby yeah!! 2weeks at work n i oready gotten myself a pay raise!!! wootz...
hmm, still tryin to get better frm tis dumb cold and fever.. mus recover by tml!
oh well, wif the vision for the last sheep, i will count myself to slp..

eyes wide shut

SICK

SIAN

LOW MORALE

SO ANGREE

SO HELPLESS..

dats me frm 945 pm til now.

人为什么要活着？

自己一人搭地铁回家时想了很久很久。

人为什么要活着？我想不出答案。

接着想下去，一直想到我必须闭上眼睛的那一刻。。

发现

不是每一个活着的理由，活着的梦想都能修成正果。

孟婆在吗?

[情]
天不荒地忘了老
一辈子
不翼而飞

[恨]
他幸福地活着
她痛快地腐烂

[夜]
星星默默地注视
曾经的过去的
消失的

传说中有一种汤。 喝了就会忘。忘了所有的怨恨，忘了所有的不平，也忘了所有的好所有的爱。
所有的事都只不过是一瞬间。你有吗? 分一碗给我好吗?

闭上眼睛，永远不在睁开。

我要

感谢伤害过我的人，
因为那磨练我的意志。

感谢欺骗过我的人，
因为那增进我的见识。

最后我要

感谢那些自私自利的人，
因为那让我明白，
人不为己天诛地灭。

所以

从今开始的我，
有一种沉默叫做放弃，
我的内心深处那一份情感，
从此不会再提起。

tmd..

some pple r juz so......
PUBORTIC!!!

busy workin gal

my 第一天 at ASME is very very the busy.. i started at 9am.. now 930pm den i reach hm.. zzz
din eat breakfast n lunch coz too busy n 不习惯 to eatin at dat timin.. not yet..
tot can haf a nice dinner aft work, who noes still mus go to a BMW private event hosted by asme. boss say mus go.. so LL.. end up din eat dinner oso. past the hunger time when i finally offwork. sianz simi appetite oso no haf le. guess tml's gonna be another fuckin busy day. faintz

how to 保持 youth le la.. tmd.

潜在忙碌中的那一刻我似乎看到了过去的入口一片寂静,
只感觉到时间缓缓流过很安全, 很逍遥。
再潜深一些, 深一些梦想就要实现了。。。

hmm.. time for a few games of GB b4 i head off to bed.

想对他说的

亲爱的，

在我们爱的世界里不能有错， 只要错了便回不了头。
只要错了。。 想回头的那个一定理亏。 你是知道的。。
你却明知故犯!!

或许在爱的世界里根本没有谁对不起谁， 只有谁不懂得珍惜谁。。
也许我的一直都在，让你忘了珍惜。
你现在嘴里所谓依然爱我的爱在哪里？ 我翻遍了全身口袋都找不著。
爱在哪里？ 究竟究竟你的爱究竟在哪里？

你的错你的抱歉，我懂。我一个人冷冷的痛，你却不能体会。
那伤口，总是挥之不去，一直缠着我。
不知不觉，我爱你的心已因背叛而开始腐烂。
我撑不下去就快要窒息。
你的拥抱弥补不了所有的抱歉，所剩的爱，

已卑微地喘息了。。

精疲力竭!!

今天过得好痛苦

好固执的等待好心情的到来

还真他妈的难

说好了不再掉泪

最后还是防不胜防的哭了

原来我竟是这样的不堪一击

或许

只有在最难熬的时候

才能把曾经走过的那段日子

看得最真确最清楚

精疲力竭!!

梦醒时分

天真的以为我已经放下，已经忘怀。
经昨晚一梦以后，我知道我根本无法释怀。
睡了又醒，醒了又睡。
原来一切就好象是一场不了的梦。
可这一场梦，一做就是七年多。
今天好象醒了，却突然感觉睡得多没道理。
不明白的是梦醒了，
却发现我依然还站在原地。

心有余

如果

沒有陪我走完一辈子的勇气

请

不要爱我

不知道还好

tis is wat i read:



文章说：“梁山伯与祝英台化蝶的故事，堪称民间传说中的经典。但是，蝴蝶双飞不是爱。以蝴蝶的生活习性来说，蝴蝶双飞却正好是爱情破裂的象征。动物学家研究发现，蝴蝶家族种类繁多，它们的寿命从数天到一年多不等。蝴蝶的‘爱情’生活更是短暂的，而且它们‘谈情说爱’多是在僻静的地方，假如雌蝶发现配偶不合己意，会毅然抛弃，再寻如意‘郎君’。交配完成以后，蝴蝶会马上振翅高飞。当雄蝶腾空直追时，就已经到了‘彻底决裂’的境界，情断义绝了。”

　

gosh!! 一时间, 还真希望 i had nv come across tis article.. SAD.
my heart was invaded by a truth i would rather not noe. so confused..
actualli oso 说不清是什么感觉，guess 有的只是真相大白后所剩的叹息和失望。
the magical touch of seein 2 butterflies flutters away in love was gone!!
sobsob.. 凌乱的心如破镜，再也拼不回原有的感觉。。。
呆着，i suddenly realised i 犯了一个无法弥补的错。
one of those few good simplicty of life 就这样被我亲"眼" destroyed.. 晕!!
realli, 有些真相还是不知道的好。
so join me my frens, in tis moment of mournin for dat perfect dance of love, ashes to ashes dust to dust ba..

投票精神

omg, i need to VOTE!!!

y no walk over? troublesome... zzz
actualli hor so many stuffs in sg can do it online, y our government no implement e-votin?
it will make it easier for lazy asses like me, no muss, no fuss, click n dats it. lolx! so simple.

votin is for citizens to support those candidates they like n i dun even noe who to fancy.
if meow meow din tell me i hadda vote for either PAP or Workers Party.. i oso duuno who r completin for the seats. guess the results doesn't affect me. im nv a very patriotic person.. think i jus cast my 'holy' vote when i see which candidate looks cuter? ok, dat is so a joke.

i will vote for the1 who has a sensitive compassionate kind heart wif a sharp intelligent n fearless mind wif a conscience...
hmm, go whr find? sg got such politician meh?

again

the JAM wasn't as bad but still quite 恐怖,
it was rainin n i is fuckin bored..

din realli get to shop ard for long coz the boys were bored
n adrian was down wif sudden flu.
we went for more seafood feast at the 大马花园


tis time i rem to take b4 pics n yes the food is so YUMMY!!


my all time 最爱 veg, ladyfingers!!


tis 肉骨茶 soup is so very very the nice..


von n me.. so bloody hot at the market. grrr...


drinks sales promoters?
faintz! dats the best they can do when ask for a pose..

after makan go whr ley? back to my hse for
more mj loh. as usual, too many legs means i dun get to play.
n fuck, i forgot to collect 水钱..


dun get to play still mus sponser tissues for the
sick man to 塞 his 鼻涕..

duuno y, think im sick of bloggin abt food.
so sianz but wat to do, i promise to blog more
on happier stuffs. so i mus 加油!!!