03 September 2007

unrealistic warmth


When you love someone, you put their needs way before your own. No matter how inconceivable those needs were; no matter how fucked up; no matter how much it made you feel like you were ripping yourself into pieces.” quote frm The Pact

ive oways thot ive seen it all. mayb the truth was, i haven seen anyting yet, it gets much worse everytime i sit here reflectin, sleepless and alone. i nvr knew killin oneself can be so tragically beautiful, to disappear like sand thru a sieve..

*gasp* i sounded suicidal. nope, i hope not. jus dat my bad flu took over my nostrils and i cant breathe very well now. doesnt help dat im coughin jus as badly. hates it when medication wun even help you. fuckin doctors! *sigh* i guess when we are sick, negative thots could easily step into our mind, unknowingly.

wait, hey i haf a qns. will you, ever love me enuff to kill me if i ask you to?

i miss the gal5.. i better go to bed.

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