一样

所有的男人在开始都是你所期盼的样子。
长久后你会觉得不是你不幸福，
而是所有的女人都会如此。。 如此一样不幸。

totally

iNTERNET
"u n yr pc, 2 is to 1" she's amused by dat joke.
being a person who uses the computer all day long, it is probably a good thing that i like it. but i might haf taken it to the next level. i think i would die wifout it. amazing isn't it..

vOODOO
i specially hate it when men commercialized somethin dats powerfully sacred, somethin dats mystically evil in wrong hands. wateva 1 can get in the market now mainly are fakes but wat if 1 managed to possess an authentic voodoo doll, wateva happens next is unthinkable.

gUILT
sometimes, when i'm having a good week, it feels weird to feel good...
it feels weird to be happy abt my life, and life in general. i'm so used to the sadness and depression because i've been in it so long that when a little smile is shown, its much too hard for me to bear. freakie..

sQUARE1
im so lost yesterday aft dat shockin news. i mean, well i was xpectin everythin to be good n ok aft tons of treatment. i wasn't prepared for wateva i heard. im not the optimistic type but for once, i firmly believed she's gonna be alright. coz she's the strongest woman i've ever known..
now, im back to whr i was. this is depressin.

aHERO
he who puts on his bravest smile and said to me.. "im ok, dun worry abt me." we both noe the road ahead in days to come is gonna be seriously tough, unpredictable hellish and even scary. yet, he din allow it to take him down. frm dat moment i knew, he's a warrior, a true warrior.

是否遗忘

这个空间已经开了一年了。 这一年真的发生了很多事。不管是好的，坏的，都让我怀念。
回望过去这一年记录的一切一切，回忆犹如潮水涌来，逝去的种种在脑海里一一浮现。
深深感受到桃花依旧，人面全非。。

不该做的，做错的，执著过的，太多了。该做的，做对的，最终放弃的，太难了。最起码我曾努力过，希望心中能了无遗憾。 希望。。

虽然记忆令人悲哀，无论现在我们每一个人所面对的怎么不一样，无论前方是风平浪静还是波涛汹涌，我还是想在这里感谢所有关心过我的人。愿我们都能真的幸福真的快乐。

driftin in peace

i gotten to noe myself better recently. i realised i haf tis terrible habbit on an eternal quest to wan to understand everythin. understand y tis is wrong y dat is so sala.. i wanted everythin to make sense.. esp towards those i cared for. i wanna make everythin rite for every1.. sadly, wif dat pursuance, i came to understood the meanin of ignorance is, actualli bliss.. yet, i couldn't stop. my ego doesn't allow me to be consumed by fires of defeat.

i discover 1 truth at least. when somethin is terribly wrong, there will oways be a reason to it. n the reason is oways hidden deep. i knew if i had to noe wats the reason, i will hafta go search for the ans. by doin dat, probably i hafta digg here n thr, path thru the shadows, even at the expenses of pissin every1 else includin myself to eventualli see dat truth, dat more horrible and painful truth den any1 could haf imagine. qns is.. worthy ma? i duno..

maybe its me. i dun belong to whr i tot i was. simplified, i dun return counterfieted smiles. i can't and i wun live wif dat. i chose not to shut my lids pretendin to be blind so everythin else bloom in plain fluke. so back to my qns earlier, worthy ma? yes if i can at least save my soul.

oh when oh when will you open yr eyes and see wat i saw?
so funny how torturously sad wateva may be, eventualli will be..