隐了姓埋了名

The worst things: — Egyptian proverb
To be in bed and sleep not, to want for one who comes not, to try to please and please not.

our 2days old new boss told me to haf a chat wif him today at 3pm. i onli had a straight no sorry im busy. me today is so sick of him pretendin dat he fuckin care, when he obviously dun. ok mayb he does, the onli difference was he probably cared abt how hes gonna keep our office together - his new job. i so wanna tell him dun waste my time, and most certainly, do not waste his. i sent him numerous emails wif plenty stuffs to follow up, for his "advisory" to speak. actualli, i tot to myself, wats thr for him to advise or perhaps change? everytin is ready, all i needed was green lights for go-ahead. i was fustrated coz i no like to communicate wif puppets. the instance he replied. it felt terrible. it hit me hard least unexpected. his signature..

Bryan Teh, ASME
Executive Director

lettin gary go has become an art i tot i haf gotten good at it. over the weeks if i could only make myself mean it mayb jus once, jus once... sighz

how etheral
our 2nd home
the familiar desk
his heh heh heh laffs
on my back lookin at the VPLs
how small
the attempts to move on
old faces disappeared
yesterday is lost

by his request, i post

today we haf a new boss.. his name is bryan duuno wat.. round round de (again), very sure of himself.. came in shake a few hands and said he will rem my smile.. duh! den... he disappeared! go whr, we duuno and i dun tink any of us care.. lolx so far, dats all for today!

JK very sweet, sent me a poem and he tinks its quite noobish but i tot it was nice! u dun find many men today who actualli bother to write a gal a poem.. no? oh and its veryyy long!! lolx.

I miss you when
your smile was real
heart-warming grin
the way it made me feel
I crave
I reminisce
the days when time is precious
Voices filled with laughter
and joyous glee
I yearn for all the times
those eyes stared into mine
deep, soulful, loving looks
nothing more sweet or divine
I ache for those days when
your embrace was strong
My feelings needless to say
for words cant explain it
this feelings just too real
I miss you so much
I cant wait to see your face
cuz when were together
my heart begins to race
When I'm with you
its like no one can get in my way,
Even when were apart
I think about you all day
diff inspirations
diff sources
only one which i seek
the only source of happiness
you and you alone
the goddess in my heart
i miss you

JK, tis works better den the "spider-flower" haha..

lemme post a few pics of the 6of us still in the office.

marv special-ordered some realli cute jelly-cheesecakes and we shared among the few of us. it was tasty and yes, the rest in the office DUN GET IT! wahhaha

more pictures.. lazy to write. lolx

like those "missy" frm red light district ma? lolx

gary and the gals...

ok la, gtg le.

灵2

† L'ange Sans Ailes † Dans l'enfer je servirai says:
Who are u my lady?
Are u Venus herself incarnate?
Why does my heart miss a beat when u flicker ur eyes?
For u blind me with ur very smile, so dazzling to my heart.
Ignite me u have, when your cheeks are blushed,
For your delicate touch aflames my divine soul
Embrace me if u must, heartbeat against heartbeat,
Till the melody of the Universe ends.
† L'ange Sans Ailes † Dans l'enfer je servirai says:
another 4 lines. I don't know wat to say.

灵

† L'ange Sans Ailes † Dans l'enfer je servirai says:
Who are u my lady?
Are u Venus herself incarnate?
Why does my heart miss a beat when u flicker ur eyes?
For u blind me with ur very smile, so dazzling to my heart.

inoka says:
is dat poem for me?

† L'ange Sans Ailes † Dans l'enfer je servirai says:
To Inoka:
Who are u my lady?
Are u Venus herself incarnate?
Why does my heart miss a beat when u flicker ur eyes?
For u blind me with ur very smile, so dazzling to my heart.

inoka says:
wow

† L'ange Sans Ailes † Dans l'enfer je servirai says:
for some unknown mysterious reason, i find that u spark this creativity in me.
† L'ange Sans Ailes † Dans l'enfer je servirai says:
even I am amazed at how I come up with these words.

my sh 24/7

you had me conquered
beautiful unicorn you rode
across my deserted palace
magical nomad’s sword struck
orion’s arms and draco’s wings
two hearts united
you left me liberated
queen of my own snowflakes sanctuary
i reborn for you
my buffin king
into eternity

before the dream fades

im not good at ultimatums, so i canot say dat tis will be the last time i will be talkin abt us, but i haf been tryin to find a closure for tis whole issue abt leavin n partin but i could not let go. i was told to forget, to move on, to consider life better aft every1 moves on. but how is it possible aft meetin a bunch who combo-ed so well so much, who helped me to find my path when i was almost lost? so its cfm dat 1 by 1 is leavin, or at least dearest shir is, very soon.. infact, too soon! she simply cannot stand the lie-lector (newly appointed director) in da office. nxt i reckon wld be my darlin lizzie.. borin! borin!! written a testimonial for lizzie in friendster as below.

~ i fell in LOVE wif a wonderfully unique person. she was able to show me life thru her eyes, which was very diff frm anyting i haf ever experienced thru my own. seductive world of her imagination, i was able to enter lizzie's castle wif plentiful fond memories i knew, will nv be erased by time ~

liz,
fly away wif me
my dearest lizzie
on our devil fightin adventure
visions of perfect combos
driftin across infinity
enterin our dreams

for Shireen aft i learned abt her resignation

her journey alone begins
when she venture out the door
and i pray will ends when we walk back thru together
again, into the arms of our only man

din get to post this 2poems coz blogger was down. duuno y. everyting seemed to be so down on me recently.. grrr..

[我们的他]
他
早已化成了一只萤火虫
飞向了他期待中的焰火梦
留下苦涩的人
黯然泪下

[我们]
我们之间
有这一本厚厚的过去
对于无意中闯入的人
只是一本无字书
因为太多美好的世外桃源
我们只能
通通写在心底

the onli good news today was.. i finalli passed my class 3. i guess dats abt all.