them
two women met
old friends maybe
with nothing in common anymore
except the man between them
and their past
i cant remember the last time
we spoke on the phone
you said you want to quit smoking
i cant register the words
can you quit me instead
because the heart that beats for you
is suddenly silent
"There are no secrets in this world, only stories" – Mutiso
feeding and sleeping at the same time. baby’s trademark? did not see much changes in her features, still as tiny in size and so pretty! i wonder if she dreams at all now..
shir and lizzie went to design and print the god-ma tees for us to wear. it was really cute the way our faces were sketched.. or rather animated? so comical, especially mine. haha..
its hardly a secret that i do not want to have a child yet. but today, carrying her in my arms close to my heart, with every little movements touches me in a way i havent experienced before, i actually felt the desire to be a mother. i couldnt believe my eyes. then again, i wrote these words myself. lolx..
just the 5 of us. we made a choice. we chose eachother. ladies who make me laugh, who chases me around the room and tries to chew my finger, ladies who are just as crazy under their beauty, who tells me to shut up when i should, who will be there when i need. and who i can be nothing but myself with. meme, ada, lizzie, joanne and shireen.
im so falling in love!!
he is hot, he is smooth, he is cool and he is so mine!
he might not be as fast as the red evo and white wrx..
but YAY anyway!
*grinz*
i can handle bad hair day.
i can handle terrible traffic delay.
i can handle long flights without smoking.
i can definitely handle junk calls from people who wants to sell me shit i dont need.
BUT waking up to a modem that loses its connection,
no matter what i do,
i fucking lose my temper!
LF’s responses to my work had usually been mentally intense for me, always forcing my mind to wander deeper, distracting my laziness, bringing me steps closer to my next work. now reading this, i am lost. inescapably lost in this beautiful poem. all i felt was a feeling of calm and serenity. its like nothing could hurt, not here, not ever. hmm, very intoxicating.
maybe if i stare at this poem long enough, i might actually convinced myself that its no longer painful..
was inspired and wrote this sometime back after reading Warrior by LF but did not post it as somehow it didnt feels right lolx. after a slight amendment earlier, still not good enough but well, here it goes..
i am sorry, i am only a human.
very restricted yet often wonder about the freedom of flying.
pretending i found liberty and the thrills of soaring.
convinced myself that i can flutter without angel’s wings.
i am sorry, i am only a human.
could you hug my imperfect state that i currently wallow in?
could you make the last tears gone and stop my suffering?
could you lay me down and forgive me for all my sins?
oh another one by LF that i screen-shot in a hurry. i supposed he did that one in like about 5 mins?
Lex*King says:
kewel!
Lex*King says:
OPS! jewel i mean. =)
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
boo
Lex*King says:
how are you?
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
still alive?
Lex*King says:
damn! your blog brings heartache.
my heart aches for you with almost every single entries.
what happened to you princess?
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
am ok le..
Lex*King says:
but u sounded heartbroken.
who bullied u? tell me i’ll go punch him when i come back sg. =)
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
dun punch, kill can?
Lex*King says:
......
Lex*King says:
seriously, whoever it was who broke your heart,
it’s only a matter of time before he realized you were too good for him.
i just wish you could see it too. =)
and please stop wasting your beautiful eyes on someone who is blind.
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
wah?
Lex*King says:
just remember you deserved the best and only the best.
and he obviously weren't it.
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
wow..
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
wey some gals said dat to u issit lolx..
Lex*King says:
hell no! i’m a nice guy.
i don’t break girls’ heart. =)
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
lolx…
Inoká Nai elyë hiruva! Namárië! says:
joyce? u broke her heart, i rem.. u ass..
Lex*King says:
shsss!
infact, jus weeks ago i was lookin for a rope to hang myself wif but rite now im mostly feelin ok, wif a hint of apathy. i duuno if its the anticipation of finalizin decisions/stuffs and the ‘lettin go’ part lingerin close or am mental blockin the sadness. at least glad im better already. tings are changin like they always do and the onli diff is dat i finalli learnt to forget. although tis isnt happiness yet but well, my life is turnin out to be not so miserable, aft all...
see, im right, men are all liars!
kung fu panda is hilarious, it made me laff. so, kung fu panda is a good movie. at least for me. yet, aft the movie, i begin to feel life bores me. i wish thr was someting mystical wif special powers, elves, fairies, witches, fumin dragons even. anyting to lift our ordinary souls, to embrace extraordinary lives. how i wish i could perform someting special, not realli kung fu types but like communicate wif dogs, be invisible, predict random stuffs, read minds, telekinesis, mayb grow wings and fly.. instead, i read, write, shop, play games, eat and sleep. how borin. if onli thr was more den wat we actualli noe. wake up wake up, its impossible. if i do haf special powers, wun i be a super hero already savin the world? or mayb i do haf someting special aft all.. i haf compassion and the ability to forgive. bleahz.
in quenya, bfore headin off to bed, you say gdnite tis way..
ouel du. amin autien rath..
ta-dah! janelle, the lovely baby frm a perfect pair jason & joanne, was born 3rd june, weightin at 2.8kg. or was it 28kg? omg 28 like alot. so shld be 2.8 lolx. wootz am officially a god-mummy!!
isnt she gorgeous? tiny fingers, tiny toes and a realli cute nose, she is so small and oh so very cute! her features pretty, it was a carbon copy of joanne. like mummy like daughter i guess.. i actualli wanted to hold her but dismissed the idea as was too afraid dat i might jus drop her if she starts wailin. lolx. ok, im not a baby person but i promise ill try to be the best god-ma!
a baby changes tings and life will nvr be the same am sure, even slp will become a ‘mayb’ for the new parents. while searchin for wat makes their hearts twirl, the future oso meant a time of great stress and readjustment for the 3Js. but yeah, like wat they say, all is worthy as janelle grows to be the sweetest gal, healthy and blessed wif good tings in life. so buckle up JJs, its time for the ride of yr lives!
im sure jus like me, von cant wait for her to grow more and hear her cute giggles. i wonder if its realli gonna be wif ‘ga ga’s and ‘goo goo’s like ive seen wif most babies and their parents. but i dun tink i will start playin wif the many ‘aahin’s, ‘ooh ga ga’s and silly peek-a-boo’s.. ha!
like an angel, she enchants everyone and most of us spent time lingerin ard her temporary crib, tryin to catch a glimpse of her, half closed eyes and smilin. her adorable smile took most of our breaths away, even though her cries gave me a headache, bleah. and oh, besides me, tis little princess has gotten herself 3 other god-mummies to show her the world and shower her wif plenty of hugs and kisses. i bet she can feel the love oready!
如果真的要骗，为何不把猫尾藏好一点？
如果真需要骗，为何还是要让我发现？
他的自以为可以瞒天过海，他的被发现后的理直气壮，让人很讨厌。
因为不能再被他的谎言杀得片甲不留，我将选择用那 “眼不见为净”的苦训，把他从心底连根拔起。所以我会删除关于他的一切。埋葬不了他，至少可以埋葬自己。埋葬不了过去，至少可以埋葬现在。我也会逼自己断绝所有可能的退路，来保证从此不见。也许男人根本便是世上最不可信的动物。什么东西最可靠？什么东西最信得过？最可信的，其实也只有自己了。
累了。轻轻地关掉我的博客，轻轻地关掉全世界。
轻轻的告诉自己，我的世界里不会再有他。
xplosive and sexy.. i couldnt haf continued it better.. =)
