tonite i came hm to a weird jelloe. he wasn't very into me. not too welcoming. hmm.. perhaps he's moody?? animals usualli stare directly at us onli briefly, den look away as if unnerved by somethin he saw n din fancy.. yet tonite, he stare at me right in the eyes for the longest time. i guess i wld nvr know why. he's a strange dog at times. but he is my dog, my onli comfort n i love him.. dat, im sure he's noes.
im xhausted all over, especially my soul. 3mths gone n i tot i was okay. i told von im okay le.
im not. too hard, it's jus too hard. how bitter do i wanna risk becomin by swallowin too many tears? cryin seems to me a perfect option. yet, i ran out of tears. so i declare, truth is sometimes best not knowin. if packs of lies is my onli lead to recovery, so pls, fill me up with lies i rather.
sighz, how strange being alive can be. those things we can so readily touch n feel are so far less real den those we can't touch, feel n see.. how ironic. how depressin. while ago i was certain i wld be better. now my confidence is ebbin like shit. god.. im so fuckin vulnerable!!!!
30 June 2006
27 June 2006
love affair..
i was walkin.. i was walkin..
she was ready...
he was eager...
ok, they were so ready to fuck. lolx
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she was ready...
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he was eager...
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ok, they were so ready to fuck. lolx
24 June 2006
jumbo-sale-in-a-tiny-box
ok weekend sucks when u wake up feelin lousy. duuno wtf is wrong wif me!! GRRrrrRRR!!
tis is gonna be everythin i wanna post but i din, only til now. think it's gonna be a realli long 1.
meow meow n me. i wonder how is he le. im worried yet dats pretty much NOTHIN i can or any1 else can do. he said had to 闭关修炼. for wat ley, nobody noes. i guess we jus hafta wait ba.
it was duno which day of june.. the yearly event my dad will organise for MR 关公's birthday.
they were prayin. i jus go down to eat. for 3days i get to eat "home cooked" food. n dats a luxury to me. ^^
durin 1of the days, johan jio me dinner, i can't so he came down n look for me. i think he wans to show off his new carbon fibre bonnet rather!
Johan n his 红红 de evo..
kuku jason oso came down to pei all of us. i took pics of his Sti den u noe wat he did? he took my fone n mms himself!! grrrr.. my 50cts.. &^#*%$@! 贱人!!
tis is gonna be everythin i wanna post but i din, only til now. think it's gonna be a realli long 1.
meow meow n me. i wonder how is he le. im worried yet dats pretty much NOTHIN i can or any1 else can do. he said had to 闭关修炼. for wat ley, nobody noes. i guess we jus hafta wait ba.
it was duno which day of june.. the yearly event my dad will organise for MR 关公's birthday.
they were prayin. i jus go down to eat. for 3days i get to eat "home cooked" food. n dats a luxury to me. ^^
durin 1of the days, johan jio me dinner, i can't so he came down n look for me. i think he wans to show off his new carbon fibre bonnet rather!
Johan n his 红红 de evo..
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kuku jason oso came down to pei all of us. i took pics of his Sti den u noe wat he did? he took my fone n mms himself!! grrrr.. my 50cts.. &^#*%$@! 贱人!!
19 June 2006
14 June 2006
11 June 2006
i dun wanna say gdbye, not yet...
"think its time for you to find a better man den me. i will still care n love u til u found dat 1.. i can't haf u waitin aimlessly for me, not knowin whr we will land. i can't bear to let u go but i hafta. spread yr wings n GO baby.. " (tis is so fuckin bullshit!!!)
the trial has just smashed onto her n he haven't said it was over. onli a dunoe how far walk towards end of a beautiful struggle of love n waitin.. haiz
can't imagine the grief when i read abt it n the amt of hurt she's goin thru.
she seems pretty cool when she told me see how ba..
perhaps she had mastered the art of lettin it down easy.
but, freedom aint an easy conquest im afraid. or maybe tis is her version of 自由。
yet, its scary how calm she was...
可怕的不是放手。可怕的是当她说放手的时候，反而抓的更紧。
伤害是这样，外表完整无缺，内在已经支离破碎。。
yes, she wanted out when things were so insecure. he din let go of her. now she brave it all and stick wif him thru thick n thin.. now he's stable, they could have a bright future 2gether..
why he suddenly wanted a change like dat in time of bliss,
will always remain unknown i reckon.
if he love her like she love him, 一切的一切 shouldn't be a problem le ma.
tmd, pack of lies is oways so easy for the 1 tellin it..
the trial has just smashed onto her n he haven't said it was over. onli a dunoe how far walk towards end of a beautiful struggle of love n waitin.. haiz
can't imagine the grief when i read abt it n the amt of hurt she's goin thru.
she seems pretty cool when she told me see how ba..
perhaps she had mastered the art of lettin it down easy.
but, freedom aint an easy conquest im afraid. or maybe tis is her version of 自由。
yet, its scary how calm she was...
可怕的不是放手。可怕的是当她说放手的时候，反而抓的更紧。
伤害是这样，外表完整无缺，内在已经支离破碎。。
yes, she wanted out when things were so insecure. he din let go of her. now she brave it all and stick wif him thru thick n thin.. now he's stable, they could have a bright future 2gether..
why he suddenly wanted a change like dat in time of bliss,
will always remain unknown i reckon.
if he love her like she love him, 一切的一切 shouldn't be a problem le ma.
tmd, pack of lies is oways so easy for the 1 tellin it..
09 June 2006
07 June 2006
05 June 2006
evilish side of beautiful things
was in the meetin room n while waitin for my boss, thot of her n her words.. realised how evil misunderstandins n egos can hurt badly.
she was over sensitive.. i was too bo chap, too angree.
[误会]
一口可怕的老井
不知深浅
但足以淹没爱的灵魂
she was over sensitive.. i was too bo chap, too angree.
[误会]
一口可怕的老井
不知深浅
但足以淹没爱的灵魂
04 June 2006
一段留白
so, tis week was awesome in a rather strange way.
i was sick all week. finalli go see doc n gotten myself 2 days mc but i went back to work onli to haf my boss chased me home. had a movie date on sat.. but i cancel it. too sick to travel ard for a movie. played mj instead.
well, ive learned sumthin abt myself and got rid of a few distractions in my life..
ive learned dat i is SO MUCH stronger den i ever thot and dat so many pple are jus not worth it!! those who r worthy, would be cherish, others can go hide in their imaginary world..
i realised i had jus enuff pple who realli care abt me rather den to worry abt the ones who pretended to..
yeah baby yeah!! 2weeks at work n i oready gotten myself a pay raise!!! wootz...
hmm, still tryin to get better frm tis dumb cold and fever.. mus recover by tml!
oh well, wif the vision for the last sheep, i will count myself to slp..
i was sick all week. finalli go see doc n gotten myself 2 days mc but i went back to work onli to haf my boss chased me home. had a movie date on sat.. but i cancel it. too sick to travel ard for a movie. played mj instead.
well, ive learned sumthin abt myself and got rid of a few distractions in my life..
ive learned dat i is SO MUCH stronger den i ever thot and dat so many pple are jus not worth it!! those who r worthy, would be cherish, others can go hide in their imaginary world..
i realised i had jus enuff pple who realli care abt me rather den to worry abt the ones who pretended to..
yeah baby yeah!! 2weeks at work n i oready gotten myself a pay raise!!! wootz...
hmm, still tryin to get better frm tis dumb cold and fever.. mus recover by tml!
oh well, wif the vision for the last sheep, i will count myself to slp..
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