haf you ever wake and felt like you cried for a hundred years in your dreams but you dun remember why?
again, i woke up tired, horrified and saddened, wif tear-filled eyes and even aft am back into awaken realm, my tears would not, could not stop... i nvr knew one can literally cry til they cant cry anymore. i tried to recall wat was the dream abt, but i cant. instead, it gave me a bad headache. damn, tis is mentally exhaustin...
在[好听]看到有一人这样写着：
越来越多人在不同的城市间奔波，却不知道哪里才是自己的归属。越来越多人游移在不同的感情关系中，却还是觉得孤单。想追求的越来越多，却不知道哪个是自己该有的方向。得到的好像也越来越多，却始终还是觉得心里有个缺口。
读的瞬间，心似乎凝结了，有一丝不解的难过。
反思后才深知。原来，我就是那越来越多人里的其中一个。
ok it's been awhile now since ive started on my new job at the wellness group. infact dat oso meant im startin to learn to take the train, rather den cabbies every mornin. ive got joanne breathin down my neck if i dun try!!! grrr..
take the north line to work "almost" everyday now (ive tried, at least) and i see lot of funny tings. i see women who went to work wif wet hairs?! haf their hair washed but dun haf enuff time to dry.. faint. i see women who puts on their make-ups while travellin. why cant they finish their face while at hm? perhaps dats why im usualli late.. spendin time makin sure i look fine bfore i leaves hm. lolx. sees quite a few caucasians goin to work. seemed thr are more foreigners workin in sg these days. infact, we haf 2 french fries (liz call em dat) in our lower delta office and another 2 at kim yan's office.
my office has free 100% certified organic tea for our consumption. haben realli drink it daily for gd health. yet, reckon i might pick up coffee aft all.. at the rate those slpy meetins are goin wif my VP. lolx
im tryin to update my outfits to be more sales-lady-like. those "asme" style dun realli suits here if i need to go and see BIG clients.. i mean realli classy type of clients. (those kind my french lady sophie calls: kill-ustomers! ha!) now i tink business casual is more appropriate. lolx so need to grab more heels, more OL skirts. a good reason to shop! yay!
the 1 good ting is, my pc is alot faster den the old 1 at previous job. dat shld make my job smoother. honestly i dun like it when i haf to wait or losin my time with the slow pc issue. it sucks! oh and i brought my winter jacket to work. i felt like i sat outside in the winter for the whole day, every day!the air conditioning is too freakin cold!! *shrugs*
i haf also found one truth abt workin life. no matter whr u are, yr colleagues and bosses are important. thrs usualli no technical problems dat is beyond my abilities. it is complicated onli when we are tokin abt the system, the people, the organisation, and how they cooperate. now twg is tryin find a way to make the expansion process smooth and well organised. its realli tough now, tryin get everyting in place.
but i noe all in all..
我好似病得不轻。
我也许患有“习惯性难过，非常忧郁症” 。
它就象无色无味的慢性巨毒侵略了我那随时都会疲惫不堪的心灵。
惝若我是真的明白人生短短，只要开心就好。
为何偏偏最办不到的，也只有如此。
不知，不解，更是想不通。
