把酒问青天

这一天，終究是來了。
我，醉了，哭累了，沉沉睡去。醒来只有浅浅的心碎声还在低低敲打。
原以为醉醒了一切再也无所谓。自欺欺人!
我想是这样的吧。那6人烟花，美丽绽放之后，也许能剩下的也只有疲倦与寂寞。
此刻断断残残，我心似画，我情如诗。



明月几时有？把酒问青天

不知天上宫阙，今夕是何年

我欲乘风归去，又恐琼楼玉宇，高处不胜寒

起舞弄清影，何似在人间

转朱阁，低绮户，照无眠

不应有恨，何事长向别时圆

人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全

但愿情长在，千里共婵娟

呵，其实有时候不唱，展示的也是一种令人绝望的美。
如果不爱6人帮，便不会感觉害怕，那前所未有的怕。。
也许爱就是这样，在料不及时出现，在没有防备的时候被迫分离。
感叹我们这近一年的努力，好像在这一刹那间都变得毫无意义。
无法预期的今天以后，不知会如何顺流？逆流？
其实，没什么好说的，变了质的生活也许就是这样，而已。

晴天霹雳

today, nvr haf i seen our world like i seen it nw n nvr haf i felt the pain
like i felt it nw. when no words of comfort or words of love, can touch us.
when no eyes of wisdom or eyes of mercy, can we look at him.. tis is miserable.
fuck, i felt so alone oready? tis is the ASME today, wat a place, dat i call, our workplace, our 2nd home. i wonder how the gals r copin.. jus as lost as me? jus as depressed as me?

meme:
gals i very sad haiz yuan lai is the knowin the 6of us mayb goin seperate places broke my heart.. into million pieces..
liz:
haiz.. i oso.. the thots of us all goin our ways scares me.. i dun tink can ever find tis ultimate combo anywhr else.. haiz feel so sian, wanna hide somewhr...
shir:
gal true frendship cannot be seperated bu distance or location 1.. we may not see each other everyday but nutin has changed..

they say: 世界上最近的距离，不是一丈之内，可以触及，而是，遥遥万里，依然心有灵犀。
realli is like tis de meh?

when i read all dat, i cant tink of anyting else.. tears jus keep escapin frm the eyes i tried so hard not to tear.. the 6of us + gary. omfgg..

不知道人的一生到底会发生什么事，才一天的时间，我们好像经历的人生的几百年，生活的变故就像翻云覆雨的天空，雷电风雨，晴天霹雳，滚滚如潮的向我们扑来，总是认为不至于会发生的事情居然真的发生了！我们不知，真的不知道该如何是好。恍惚的边缘。。

nw, the onli contentment i gotten is frm the 4silly ones playin mj in my hall.. to em, nutin much needed to be said. they jus wanna pei me, lemme sob quietly in my pc room til im feelin better. n yes, i do noe, if i need to talk, they would be thr waitin.. ahh, i cant stay sober, i kinda devastated.. i is need to drown my sorrows.. yellow tail red, yellow tail red..

angela

i had a bad dream again.. sad

my dearest sis, if i could, i would shrink myself so small, sink thru yr skin to yr blood cells n remove watever dat makes you pain, make you ok again. but, im too weak to be yr cure. i can onli stand by you n watch you fall..

bad omen.. i no like wat i "saw"....

very sweet surprise..

some1 sent me 6 lovely roses!! no card no name, so mysterious. ha!
WHITE roses in GREEN wrappins, green my fav color.. so sweeeeeeeeet!

6 stalks = i wanna b yours
white roses = u r heavenly, i miss you

ok, i called up n check wif the florist lolx..

meme: hi, i jus received a bouquet frm your guys n thrs no note frm sender. mayb u can tell..
(i was interupted bfore i could finish my sentence)
florist: oh the white roses 1 issit? the man say u will noe.. so no need leave card.
meme: you haf his name?
florist: duuno issit the sender, but is a gal name..

ok, i tink noe who le..


meme: heyhey, did u sent me white roses in green wrappin??
jy: yes, hope it can cheer you up n yes, i noe u like green...
he noes im quite moody recently.. a few simple abc, tis simple gesture, touched me.


Liz says: pple u no like send u d whole shop oso no happy one lah
inoka says: nothin much jus wanna cHeer me up
Liz says: i thk tis kind is most sweet lor
Liz says: no reason jz send one
inoka says: yes
inoka says: dats why
Liz says: rather than special occassion then send
Liz says: hahaha...
Liz says: soooo sweeet de leh
Liz says: tis one nt bad nt bad... add points
inoka says: lolx

i is totalli agreed wif lizzie n i is still smilin til nw!! :)

whr oh whr haf u been?

All the lonely people, where do they all come from...
All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people, where do they all belong?
~ Eleanor Rigby, The Beatles

sick n drowsy, haiz unbearable pain, useless medication n a battled body. yet, i amused myself much this noon when, aft a good few hrs of sleep, my mind rejuvenated enuff to tink clearly once again. it was den dat i realized dat tis stress and sadness i been feelin lately was largely due to my confused state of mind, hidden huge ego of a fairly small built gal.

the sense of not being lost which i work so hard at maintainin was being trampled upon by my fantasies, of havin a total brand new life wif the some1 whom i knew is impossible. there is oways tis imaginary crack i presented bfore myself, imagine escapin thru it n onto life anew.
how is dat possible, a qns i constantly questioned myself.

seriously, i is haf no legitimate complaints. i haf all i need. indeed, much more den suffices. so, any thots out of me is merely a matter of a momentary loss of affection for present, lettin all funny sickenin wild thots lead to me to forget all i haf n wantin of more.
yet, i haf an issue, perhaps the same many of us drifters haf.. i am often bored.

the weird ting is, i simply love to be alone and prefer not to feign interest unnecessarily but i get bored eventualli. i love to hang out wif pals.. try out new stuffs n hobbies n likewise i get bored soon enuff.. i wonder if tinkin too much got to do wif it. mayb, jus mayb i shld haf my eyes closed try not to ponder or wander or pursue anyting pensively watsoever. try not to be clever or witty or "wise", stop tryin to analyze wats on every1s mind, contemplate my every next move to ensure me not losin hope..

to the you who's tryin hard to understand me when i barely noes myself. you vie in vain my dear, n you will only be driven insane, shld you keep tryin..

陌生了

你不懂得
到底我需要的是什么
看不透是你的错

一切都陌生了