饱饱饱!!

stupid eug n steven pang seh (放生) us go JB de KTV 抱妹妹s wif they frens. so adrian von n me decided to go JB oso! but we wan go shop for dvds[hush hush lolx] n makan but the jam was like WOW!! end up we gave up n settle for dinner in sg.


we went Jumbo!

too hungry to rem take b4 pics of the satisfyin meal..
hehe onli rem to take aft pics. is gross now i see coz i is still very full. lolx




tis fellow ah, full of complains.. too hungry n too full.. zz
dat is how he looked like when FULL!!

after Jumbo, we gals wanted somethin sweet
even though we r very full oready
so we insisted adrian drove us to CoffeeClub for some desserts.
very 贪吃 hor? haha..


yummy! very very sinful, very very shiok! lolx


von, my little 开心 greedy pig!


dat look on his face, mus be thinkin how to finish his ice mocha..

aft all those makanin, we almost cannot lift ourselves to walk.
太饱了!!
haiz, too bad meow meow got to work. few days no see,
so miss him.. !!!

to shiling

这一刻，有我最深的思念。
让满心的祝福，点缀你甜蜜的梦。

愿你度过一个温馨浪漫的生日！

bliss i pray for thee..

went to 4seasons hotel for chinz n rachel weddin.. supposed to get my hair set at robin's but i couldn't make it on time, so i decided to jus tie everythin up myself. a little messy but i guess it will do, ha!


(left2right: joanne, me, rachel[bride], irene)


(lotsa yum seng + the very drunk groom, chinz[in specs],
very blur pic but dats the best i could do wif movin pple n a lousy 7610)

every1 was playin wif their fones at our table.. comparin the mega pixes.


(dats wif adrian's fone.. joanne n me. the so called 2mega pixes???)


(gorgeous us again wif jon's atom, oso 2mega pixes. hmmm very pinkish.. )


(jason n joanne. my fone like best ley.. horhorhor? onli 1.3mega pixes! hehz)


(adrian, me, jason.. tryin hard to smile coz we r too full frm eatin too much.
our table got 3 empty seats. aiyo those pple huh, not cumin no say de.
so bad.. of em)

arite folks, tis is the best on the weddin or on ourselves? lolx.
jus wish the Rats couple all da bestz in their matrimony!

My most brilliant achievement was my ability to persuade my wife to marry me.

~Winston Churchill~

see NO touch

steven n eug fetched me go dinner at hougang mall
jus now b4 they proceed to my hse for mj...

den steven bought me sweets..
hehz 好感动 by his little gesture. ^^
they came over for mahjong but im not allowed to play loh, faintz.
these r the bullies of the nite!! hmmpphh 真讨厌!!!


(anti-clockwise: meow[grey tshirt], adrian, steven, eug)

so hor, i can onli blog while they happily cursin eachother away..


(BIG winner: steven who treat me dinner :P)


(3 boys tryin very hard to recoup their losses lolx)

when u not playin, it's actualli quite njoyable lookin at em play.
can be pretty 刺激 jus by watchin, u get the kick but wun get to lose.
haha.. next time i dun get to play, mus collect water monie le.. tmd!!


(my baby jelloe, guess im not the onli 1 deprived of fun)

the words i hear alot now:

我操!, knnz, wah cb, wah u chao &%^$...
lose til high, fuck... u Von wannabe ah? still mai feed?
Von number2 ah cb.... etc!

aiyo 可怜的 yvon, not playin 2nite oso kenna fuck frm afar...!

难

很久很久以前有人说

~每失去一样东西 你的自由就会多一些~

真的是这样吗
握紧拳头
什么都没有
如果松开手
就真的可以拥有整个世界吗

faintz

floatin lazily, i is so tmd de slpy!!! yet im still so bloody awake. y ley, i duno.. zzz

whisperin wind
carry me back to my dreams
lock me thr,
forever.

pls la.. i wan to slp!

人临死时 会想些什么

满天星

story of 1man, 1boat n a [almost] perfect night..

~dat night~
stars, stars n more stars,
everywhr i look, i see
stars, stars n more stars.

~affections~
run to the canvas,
whr the stars r waitin
to carry me to u.

~innermost~
the stars shone on
carryin memories n pain
of lost n found hope..

~him~
his affections, a flame
dat burns thru the yrs
n never goes out.

~if only i could~
one smile frm thy heart, i fell
deep into the pool
of yr smokey eyes.

the night is still so bloody young..

the moon crawls 2nite..
every1 who stays by me thru r goin back to work. everyone ard me flies, content with their own existence, to continue on their journey. while down here i am still so lost.
argh! ok, who's turn to redeem me of the sadness i accquired since dat fateful day?
im so sick of not knowin wat to do, whr to go.. n im sick of writin,
seems my every creative thought based solely on him, on the hurt he caused.

perhaps trying too hard to force dat painful past outta the present isn't gonna work.
will never happen, i wanted it too much to be gone too soon i guess..
aiyo, time moves past me slowly, im still stuck in the same place of agony.

recently, either i can't eat or i dun eat well. i wanted to eat, i jus can't.
maybe i jus wanna starve myself. starve every painful tots dat lingers,
starve every memories dats tormentin my soul n 2gether i could starve em to death!! hmm...
yeeeww, meanin to say if my love for him mus die so dat i may live, i shld surrender? haiz!
ha, i mus be pretty senseless rite now.. *faint*

if onli i could steal some courage, mayb it wld be easier to end this unbearable fight against broken trust. driftin thru wat might haf been n wat could haf been, no ans. seems my love for him is gettin colder by the minute. it's gonna take more den luck for him to win it back.
gosh! im sosososososo tired of all this shit!!!

他的心已经要回
我找不到我的心
他的心已经回来
我好像没有了心

斗转星移

想忘就像喝下一杯冰冷的水

然后化作滚烫的泪

从眼中流出来

心底那荒凉的冷

不可想象

没经历过的人

根本无法体会

刻骨的心痛

[深]
依然徘徊在
应该忘与不能忘
的痛苦里
找不到出口

[败]
曾经温馨的感动
跌碎在一个瞬间
的糊涂帐

[绝]
他的激情过后
我只剩一颗烧干的泪
坠入凡尘

[埋]
与他
只有转身的距离
可这转身
却耗去我一生的叹息

[迷恋]
是一个阴谋
一开始就导演了这场
你我她的悲剧

想着想着 变了

read tis somewhr，觉得蛮有意思的。

"Sometimes getting affected by people, at times we just chose to be affected by other people. For example, people say stupid at you once but you ended saying it to yourself many times by arguing about it in your heart."

我们是否也帮助了他人去強化他们的话呢？別人的一句無心快语，
可能是我们自己把它变为现实的。

叹息

我想我总是不知道
要如何去学会放弃
现在我知道
有些事 有些人
你根本就无法掌控
不是你不去放弃
而是你根本就抓不住


我的灵魂好像已经
疲惫不堪
不明白选择放下后
心为何还在痛
感叹一切只能尽在不能言中

too much of nvr shld've been..

[我们]
也许是有爱的
但是没有爱情
也许是有爱情的
但是没有未来

[缘]
走了好久好久
一不小心
迷了路

[忆]
曾经的 过去的
没有预兆的消失

[夜]
心痛了再痛
泪干了再流
不由自主
一把盐按住伤口

[無奈]
火焰舞蝶的媚
你回不了头
我不得已
被逼
转身而去

[背]
丝丝牵挂
片片忧伤
一场破碎的梦
从此走下去
不停留
不再回头

[苦]
无渴望 无呼唤
无情无感
无幸福可言

迷

Often, people don stop to reflect and check their direction in life until they are feeling low or are in rough times... and when they do, they realised that they are lost... read tis frm a blog




oh yes, im very LOST...
不知为何总觉得这几年好像死活着，真的好累。
why issit so hard for him to see wat i realli ever wanted?
im beginnin to start walkin again,
away frm whr i started n rested for a long time.
是时候起程了却不晓得该往哪里去，唉
7 年前的我觉得会因为他而快乐。7年后的今天，只剩寂寞和狼狈。
helpless!! so bloody helpless...
i used to believe he would nvr change,
i used to believe in him, in me.
i used to believe....

每当我奴力的学着开心点，坚强点，
总会有一个声音在耳边提醒着我：
放弃吧，快乐离你太远了。

好难过。。