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9 June

i had a very startlin nitemare. it instilled wat felt like very real fear. i jumped and rushed to her bedrm onli to find her missin.. her rm light was on. she went somewhr, in a hurry..

2pm she was havin her jab at nearby clinic.
4pm she started to vomit. i had to get her dinner so she can take her pills. liver mee-sua she said. went to bedok aft many smses, seekin for a liver mee-sua stall.
8pm adrian fetch me to bedok. bought the mee-sua, came home. she ate 2 mouthful and started to puke again. the pukin din stop.
9pm the boys and von came over for mj..
11pm wanted to send her to hospital. she refused.

10 June

12am to 4am all i could do was reheat her heat pad and constant checkin if she was any better.
635am my fone rang. its angela. she cant take the pain and requested to go haf another jab, same clinic. gp refused to jab her. insisted we send her to kk.
645am jon fetch us. 180 on CTE. i did not stop the speedin. my mind was somewhr else.
655am reached kk A&E, doc wanted her to stay for observation cos she might need blood transfusion. she refused. nutin the doc could do, gave her the jab she wanted.
745am took her oral medic for her, brought her home. she fell aslp in the car. 90 on CTE.
8am home. ready her heat pad. put her to bed.

she promised if the pain worsen, i can bring her back for admittance. i promised the doc, i will be thr to check on her for the next 2hrs.

yes im fuckin tired.. but i noe i cant fall slp. my eyes all red frm cryin. yes im fuckin devastated. tis is the hardest ting ive ever had to deal wif, witnessin her agony. i feel like my mind is all fallin apart. how else can i make her pain go away?