31 December 2007

08 and nothing else..

so now its 2008's eve. the very one nite its acceptable to drink as much as you wan. the very nite whr you make merry, pass out den wake up to a whole new yr. its jus begun and you can do watever you wan wif it..

frens are sendin me wishes for my new yr resolutions. pple make resolutions. to becum wat they perceive as “better pple”. ive nvr been able to make resolutions. i nvr could resolve anyting. not myself. nor anyone. the changin of dates, days, years, watever, nvr seemed to haf much impact, cept dat im sadden by being another yr older. sighz.. jus numerical and labels. guess dats wat they are. imaginary sign posts in our minds we use to reassure ourselves abt how far we haf gone.

why celebrate how one year melts into the nxt? so we could pretend it can help us alter ourselves when in reality, it only emphasizes how very stagnant we all are… everyting ard me is in constant flux and yet, we use festives like tis to tell ourselves we do change and perhaps can change. but the truth is, we are the one ting dat doesnt.

aww whr shall i go when this 2007 ends as it is nearin dat closure. circle back to the start. i hafta go, but whr can i go? whr does it lead me? i seriously dunno..

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