reversed heartbeats

i see the way u love me,
i just never write it down.
one blink and its all gone.
its strange how that happens,
too often.

so with nothing left to try,
i decided to close my eyes.
not to sleep or to hide,
but to feel vulnerable.
i closed my eyes,
i exhaled.
and i shut you out.

遗忘你我才可以拯救我自己。